It’s been about a year since I wrote a personal blog and WOW! What a year THIS has been! (Cue Face Palm) I mean seriously, y’all, who would have thought as we sat down to Thanksgiving dinner last year that we were on the verge of a year filled with chaos, riots, sickness, deaths, and political madness. I mean, life is unrecognizable right now, am I right? And here we are, celebrating Thanksgiving this week in quarantine, having to limit face to face time with our loved ones and rethinking the way we celebrate the holidays. Anyone else think we are in a weird alternate universe right now? I do!
It’s times like these that I really have to step back and take it all in. This year has been a wild ride for ALL of us and most days I have been running around in survival mode trying to keep my world spinning and my family happy. It’s been hard, SO HARD and just trying to keep a handle on all the emotions, stress and worry has been overwhelming at times. The world has contracted and we are all living in these small, tight, quarantined bubbles. It makes us feel so isolated and grumpy (at least it does for me). Emotions are at an all-time high right now and I am finding myself watching from a distance and seeing behavior and animosity like I’ve never witnessed before. It is heartbreaking. I have always been taught to be thankful for what I have, to love your neighbors and respect each other’s voice. I have watched with disappointment as friends have turned on friends simply over having a different opinion. There has been so much drama, lies, manipulation, finger pointing, division, judgement, accusation…. I mean, how did we get here? We are all suffering, all stressed and all just trying to push through day to day. Where is all the love? Sympathy? Kindness? I know it’s out there, I see it, but doesn’t it seem to be harder to find? Have masks, social distancing and the fear of getting sick made us cold to each other? When is it going to feel normal to walk within 6 feet of someone without panicking? When am I going to be able to hug my family and friends without feeling like I’ve broken some law? Needless to say, we are all overwhelmed right now and ready for life to reveal some sliver of normalcy. It’s exhausting and I admit- I’m so done.
I know you feel me. I know I am not alone. Everyone is feeling the effects of this past year and just trying to figure out how to cope with it all. I can’t control the world right now, but I know I can control my own actions. I can wake up each day and make a conscience choice to care, to love and to value others. When in our lifetime has anything been so profound? That literally everyone on the planet is experiencing the same thing? This is an opportunity to relate to each other, to come together and show support. We all know what each other is going through. We ALL understand. I know that if we take it a step at a time, day by day, we will all get through this together. I pray that each of us remembers to be kind, to respect and take care of each other. It’s the only way we will persevere and overcome all the challenges we are facing. I have faith in myself, I have faith in God and I have faith in us. We can do this.
As hard as this year has been, I know I have so much to be thankful for. At one point this past year during the spring shutdown, both Dan and I were out of work, but somehow, God always gave us what we needed. Thank you, God. We’ve suffered loss (we miss you, Pappa), tragedies and heartache this year, but we are healthy, safe, and loved. Thank you, God. We are trying to figure out how to be “school teachers” this year (Oh Lord), but Jack is learning and adapting. Thank you, God. We’ve had more time with our son than ever this year and he is learning how to cook, clean, and be accountable. Thank you, God. There have been so many hard days, but through it all, we’ve had so many small blessings that I know in a year, when things are more “normal”, we will never get back. So, thank you, God, for your strength, love and commitment to our family.
I want to send a big shout out to all my amazing and loyal clients. I am so thankful that you continue to trust me to capture milestones and fleeting moments while at the same time, keeping y’all safe and sound this year. It’s because of you that I am able to run my small business and I just want to say “thank you” for your advocacy and support-especially this past year. I hope everyone has a safe, socially distant and healthy holiday season. As hard as it is to not have my mom here this year and to keep family safe at home, I know it will all pay off soon. You can bet when all this is past us, I’m flying her out first class to love all over her. I’ve definitely learned not to take advantage of the small things in life, anymore- watching a little league baseball game, dropping Jack at school, or browsing the bookstore with a cup of tea in hand. Hang in there, y’all, it will return. As is life, this too shall pass and I bet all of us will see things through fresh and appreciating eyes when this is over. Happy Thanksgiving to each of you and may you have health and happiness this holiday season.